ケータイを買った日のこと

a.b.s. will release new single CD again!!
The title of it is “キミノウタ.”
Yey, yey!! I cannot wait listening to it! 

Recently, I’m doing nothing special.

Because of jet lug, I woke up very early every morning, but that’s it.

But I think spending ordinary days is very happy!

I’m spending lots of time with my parents.

It is not always fun, but it’s precious!

 

I think I’m feeling culture shock.

Many Japanese things are strange for me.

Clerks in shop are too polite.

The nuance of words contains too much content.

The communication through text is kind of weird for me…

Why rumor is so popular?

 

And, I found that I cannot communicate smoothly even in Japanese.

I should have felt more confidence in my English… I’m awkward anyway. lol

 

 

I’m cleaning up my room now. (My mother will not let me go back to Tokyo if I don’t finish it. Scary. lol)

Because I lived in Tokyo, the things in this room are unnecessary things.

They are just what I couldn’t throw away. Memorial things.

 

I was surprised that I could throw away many things without sadness.

I forgot many memories. What was important for me is not important anymore, because I forgot why they were important.

Is that mean that I got an adult?

Or did I lose important things?

But maybe I thought it is ok to forget. Maybe.

So maybe it’s ok. I may get other things instead of them.

 

I think my mentality changed a lot after last January.

I tried to stop my time after I graduated elementary school.

It was silly to try to stop my time, but it was not silly for me.

But I was finally released in January.

I got to be able to change after that.

I don’t know if the people who surround me notice my change, but I think I changed.

I hope my life in Japan will change. I hope so…

 

I found many letters which I got when I was middle school and high school student in my desk.

To be honest, I was always not very happy at that time.

But there were many letters.

I don’t keep in touch with most of them, but they were my friends at that time.

Why was I so unhappy though I got such good letters?

 

Today, I sent messages to my friends to tell my new phone number.

Many sent back to me and said “Welcome back.”

A friend called me at night. She is one of my friends who gave me letters.

Most of the letters were from her.

We have been friends since the very early time in middle school.

Why did I so unhappy though she was always with me?

 

Another friend sent text to me and was very pleased at my come back.

I went school and went back to home with her every day when I was high school student.

Why was I lacking confidence so much even though she was always with me?

 

I always had friends with whom I can talk trifle things.

We went different ways and we live far away, but we are still friends.

I’m sorry to them that I couldn’t stop feel unhappy. I wanted too much. Or I didn’t notice how much I had. I always thought about what I lost.

 

I’m gonna meet her tomorrow.

Will we be life-long friends? I think so. I want to be.

I want to know what happened to her while I cannot meet her.

I want to tell what happened to me while I cannot meet her.

It was long long time for us.