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I  think I wasted too long time.

What have I done for half  a month?

I just made that a excuse.

What I done was done. What happened cannnot be changed.

Sometimes, people has to admit that there is no solution or possibility.

I should have been more practical sooner.

I wasted much energy...

But maybe it was not bad.

I finally gave it up and got stronger.



I have to think about my future.

I have to be more serious about job-hunting. (How many times do I say so?)


Actually, I thought I was not ready to begin working.

So I did many things to improve myself.

The circumstance is improving, but still, I haven't get enough confidence yet.

(I don't know what is "enough confidence" or if it is possible to get it, though)


I think I need number.

Actually, what driven me was always number.

I have to write down what I did and use some service which measure my ability.



That's why I bagen to write my blog in English again.

It is the first day.

What I did today is---

Tried a new cafe

Went to library (to read newspapers)

few! wow!



By the way, the cafe I went today was great!

Have you ever been to "one plus one?"

The interior, the exterior and the girl who worked there was soooo cute!

Few customers. Quiet.

And the clerk didn't implied me to get out even once though I spent hours.

If it was warmer, it was a perfect cafe. lol

I'm afraid that it will be more crowded after the school begins...

But perhaps I'll go there again.

Let's go together!! The food is good price!




Though the written test finished and I'm sure I faled it, I went to library to read newspapers.

I think I got to like to do that.

I wanna know more about the society. I don't wanna be domb during comversation.

But just reading is meaningless. More important thing is that think about what I read and organize it.


Organize!

How long didn't I hear this word?

I wanna be a organized person!!!!


anyway

I'm now interested in economy and politics.

I believe the time which I spent for them is not just waste and the knowledge enables me to think deeper about culture.

Too many things to study...

But I have to do that to catch up with intelligent people.

The impoetant thing is to be as efficient as I can. Or even more than I can.


What should I do now? What am I able to do now?

The first thing to do is just beginning.